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This isn’t a political forum, and it isn’t the place for me to share my political views or to vent about the challenges of living with PSP during a time of war. I write about those things elsewhere.
Here, I simply want to pray for the safety of the innocent civilians across the region who are living under the fear of war.
As I wrote the other day, my mind was overwhelmed with anxiety and anger about whether an impending war would affect my daughter’s dream wedding. That anxiety has largely faded, not because anything has improved, but because we already know the impact will be significant. My beloved in‑laws won’t be able to attend, which breaks my heart, and we have no idea what will happen next. Still, we want the wedding to go ahead. And the anger… has gone.
Living with PSP during a war is not easy. The minute you have to reach a shelter is so much harder than it once was. Every time I need to use the bathroom or get changed, there’s a heightened fear that an alert will sound. Earlier this evening, I was outside when a siren went off, and a friend generously let us use his shelter because we didn’t have time to get home. My son and my friend helped bundle me down the stairs, and let’s just say it wasn’t good for me. I’m deeply grateful to them. It took a while to recover, and now I will stay home to avoid that happening again.
The stress isn’t good, and neither is the lack of sleep. We’ve had three sirens since 10 p.m., and sleep completely eludes me. But even with all of this, my struggles are nothing compared to the burden carried by those who are fighting to keep us safe. And so I return to the main theme.
There are far bigger things than me and my PSP. My dream of seeing the ideal wedding, surrounded by my closest family and friends, feels secondary when weighed against the reality of my condition and the importance of time. But still, these hopes remain close to my heart. We will adapt, and my anxiety has already eased dramatically since my post about it the other day.
For now, my prayers are with our soldiers, our allies, and the innocent civilians everywhere who are caught in this hopefully soon‑passing war.
